sujushineeluv:

Mum, how are you mum, i am mum’s daughter JiSoo. It’s been a year and 41 days since you went to heaven, if you are still around, you will have so much to say. “faster study! watch how you spend! Treat me better! Be more sincere when you greet…” etc…kinds of nagging, but now, i really really want to listen to these nagging… When you were still alive, why did i hate all the naggings to the extent that i talked back and fought with you many times. Now i really miss your voice when you were nagging, i really want to listen to it. Till now, whenever i close my eyes and think, mum’s face and all that happened in the past will appear in my mind. All except for one thing, Mum’s voice. That voice, i can’t remember no matter how hard i try.

That time, whenever i go back home from school, mum will happily say ” oh you’re back!” but yesterday when i went home, i said “Mum, I’m hungry” and looked for mum, but, i didn’t hear your voice, that’s why you don’t know how sad i was alone in my room yesterday. In class, there’s a teacher who love talking about parents, whenever i attend the lesson, there will be a topic about parents, that is why now i will excuse myself from class and hide in the toilet to avoid this topic. My friends ask me why i cry every time we talk about parents, i don’t know too… Even though it’s been a year, i still hide this fact from my friend. Why did i do that, after hearing all that, mum’s face will clearly appear in my mind that’s why i feel that i should be a better daughter in future. Mum left alone.. looking at the family photo, looking at my mum who gave me so much happiness, made my very upset. 

Mum, if you could hear this letter in heaven, Can you come down for a little while? All the “i love you”s that i did not say to you when you were alive? i have already said them all to you in my dreams. Mum, at that point of time, mum’s daughter JiSoo was rebellious and did not listen, I’m really very sorry. If you are around the next life, i will surely become a daughter that will make you proud, so in our next life, mum you must allow me to become your daughter! understand? 

I know mum is always in the skies looking after me, thank you…